Anxiety is not predictable for someone with generalized anxiety disorder.
Now that I am taking effective anti-anxiety and anti-depressant medication, I actually have many many calm, pleasant days where I feel in control, productive and happy. Before, I had nothing to compare my anxiety-filled days to. For me, that was all there was. And now that my anxiety is under control most of the time, I have good days and bad days. Before it was bad days and not-so-bad days. The sad thing is that now, when I wake up feeling anxious, it is like an old crappy shoe that still fits.
It is so easy to be sucked up by that tornado-ish emotional hold. The world feels foggy and I just can’t focus. It is hard to get anything done. Even though I know there is something causing me anxiety, I am unable to pull away from its hold. I try to stop and think about what has set off this setback. It always turns out not to be an earth-shattering event, but a series of smaller ones that have added up to cause me this anxiety. And this is why it is so hard to step out of the tornado: trying to realize which event was the final straw.
When there is a serious life issue to deal with, my adrenalin kicks in and I am in charge. It is the smaller things that press my own personal anxiety buttons that are so hard to control. Often one anxiety provoking thing slipping in is not noticeable. But then its 2 or 3 or even more worrisome things surrounding me, when I have not yet been able to get control of the first anxiety. So when I wake up in the morning I feel overwhelmed before I even get out of bed. I have to work hard not to give in to the depression. If I can keep moving, I am able to get back on track, put things in perspective, and shut that anxiety down. Perspective…..that is the big thing for us generalized anxiety sufferers, isn’t it?
Tags: generalized anxiety disorder, perspective, worry, happy, content
- Posted in : generalized anxiety disorder
- Author : freebird
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