Psychotherapy was my first attempt to free myself from anxiety and depression.
So once my second child Evan was in the picture, I think I really operated on pure adrenalin in a robotic manner. I would never let anything happen to my babies. They now became the reason for waking up each day. I focussed on them completely. If I had any other life before, it no longer existed. I felt like a juggler. I can’t imagine how mothers of twins manage. After all, my kids were 3 1/2 years apart. That should not have been so difficult. But it was. I was not able to cope like a normal mother. I …
Becoming a mother made my anxiety worse. Or was it vice versa?
Why is there no real preparation for motherhood? No one can ever tell you how it feels to have your own child. Mothers, you know what I am talking about. Fathers, some of you know what I mean, too.
Now for the relatively normal woman, being a mother is indeed a challenge. It changes your life. You no longer come first. You suddenly (even though you had 9 months to think about it) find yourself responsible for keeping a tiny, helpless baby alive and well. On the other hand, for an anxiety driven woman like me, becoming a mother is a …
Anxiety controlled my life. Therapy was not helping.
If you are reading this blog, chances are you are a worrier. Chances are you have a child, sibling and/or a parent who is also a worrier. Furthermore, if you are reading this blog, chances are that you have not found relief from this often paralyzing condition. I’ve been there. I am still there some of the time. I want to tell you about the help I found for my debilitating anxiety.
I am 58 years old and I have been in psychotherapy for about 30 years! Without this, I know that I would have fallen apart a long time ago. …