Psychotherapy was my first attempt to free myself from anxiety and depression.
So once my second child Evan was in the picture, I think I really operated on pure adrenalin in a robotic manner. I would never let anything happen to my babies. They now became the reason for waking up each day. I focussed on them completely. If I had any other life before, it no longer existed. I felt like a juggler. I can’t imagine how mothers of twins manage. After all, my kids were 3 1/2 years apart. That should not have been so difficult. But it was. I was not able to cope like a normal mother. I …
Becoming a mother made my anxiety worse. Or was it vice versa?
Why is there no real preparation for motherhood? No one can ever tell you how it feels to have your own child. Mothers, you know what I am talking about. Fathers, some of you know what I mean, too.
Now for the relatively normal woman, being a mother is indeed a challenge. It changes your life. You no longer come first. You suddenly (even though you had 9 months to think about it) find yourself responsible for keeping a tiny, helpless baby alive and well. On the other hand, for an anxiety driven woman like me, becoming a mother is a …
The Results of My Visit to the Psychiatrist
Dr. G listened patiently to my “life story”. I talked and I cried. There was alot to tell him. When I was done, he sat back and said, in Psychiatry, we call people like you, who suffer from anxiety and depression, the “walking wounded“. No one knows what is going on inside you as you go about your daily life. To the onlooker, you seem perfectly fine, but all the while you are suffering silently. You don’t have to suffer any longer. I will help you to feel better. This is caused by a chemical imbalance in your brain. Anxiety …